Just because we look human-ish doesn’t mean we weren’t created to be something else.
The first step to growing your inhuman abilities is to be able to admit how human you actually are.
Time slows and minutes crawl by like weeks as the thoughts burst into feelings that intern burst into words… These words grow and destroy like our generation to last… Once again I stand on broken sands of a world rapidly collapsing, or thats how it feels…
I watch it erode and burn in my mind, knowing that this is no reflection of actual things… I need not run as I have before, I have something in this world more important than beauty, elegance, or all the treasures combined… In this ever self destroying world of mine I grew love, love that I’m hell bent on keeping. May the skies burn to the earth, the oceans rage into nothingness, and ground crumble into the void… I’m no human I will stand my ground and it will stand with me… All and none as my witness…
Need not trouble yourselves, this is my world… Take such things into consideration When you disregard others feelings, or are disregarded.
I must confess I feel like a monster.
They refuse we exist, that humanity isn’t evolving but they take not into account the fact we were born and raised outside the bounds of human lives, our souls are our leaders and the needs that follow. They’ll keep calling us human until they notice how we control human kind. You call victim of emotion I call torn from the inside out, through which I free my brethren by showing them we are equal or better to humans.
There’s always that breaking point for everyone, key difference between us and humans is humans tend to breakdown and not regain themselves until someone pulls them back up… We breakdown in strange ways, maybe it’s as basic as giving up letting things happen but more commonly for us lesser human more something else is pulling others in and pulling them down and feeding off their energy to stay human both ways… This process drains humans and they start to breakdown themselves usually as their friend you can cheer them up and still maintain the human energy taken, but when we feed off each other a state of dependency forms. Both of you lacking enough human energy to stay human, feeding off each other only wastes the human energy and you both begin to feed off the monster within and begin to lessen your humanity together until you are connected by souls and practically breathing each others breath. This looks like from a humans point of view a bad short term relationship due to how desperately both our kind would feed off each other. Without enough excess sustainable human energy, such as allot of friends witness to the relationship and fall victim to what’s now a black hole for human energy all who involve themselves are drained.
Leaving us monsters of each other. Gender is a large benefactor to maintaining purpose for humanoids, a female can drain humanity quicker and more effectively than males. Males grow dependent on females human and not. Depending on the female, males may assert dominance quickly or secede it to a female to draw them out and drain the humanity discretely, the female ignorant to what is actually going on so involved in leadership. While a female humanoid would feel through the males trickery and pull his humanity when he leasts expects it, and the male would correspond. Due to personal relationship humanoids will often disregard each others existence completely… Often seen by humans as drama, but the emotional need to feed is ever present inside our kind.
Just keep breathing, that’s the key for being human… Slow to normal Consistent breathing, keeps whatever else’s in your head calm… Or that is what’s suppose to work for humans…
